Make Mine Cr33py!

It’s one of those days that I would rather be at home in bed. I need a career change. I want to do graphic design/web design, but it’s so hard to just up and start something like that. I’ve got the skills (although I can improve in many areas), but I need the time and patience to put together a portfolio. Don’t get me wrong, I like working on hardware and networks, I just can’t stay interested in it because its the same thing, over and over. I need something that will allow me to be creative, and working on networks isnt it. I will just start freelancing on the side, and from there we will see. I wish Kenni would do the same, she has an amazing talent for graphics and art.

I like my work, I love my company, they are the best employers I’ve ever had. I just forsee a change in the future.

A broken smile
A friendly push
A chronic stare
A crooked cross
A kneeling god
A consectutive backstabbing
A faith no more
A severed friendship
A tragic loss
A souless body
A overwhelming emotion
A shitty day
A shitty year
A death worth grieving
A child is born
A ego overdose
A little piece of me
A lot of you
A duo no more
A loss for the team
A problem smiling
A final countdown
A sea of dead
A lot of questions
A lot less answers

Blinded by the book

World of Warcraft is fab, don’t ever think any different.

I noticed that the house we wanted has changed its deadline status to Daily at 23:59:59. Hrm, did it not sell?

I hope thats the case, if it can stick around for a week or so longer…..

I have lost my voice.

I am so sick, my voice has now left my body, I have a strange heaviness in my chest.

I hope its not pnumonia (sp)

We are not going to have the loan in time before the house bid closes, so there goes that house.

I honestly believe that this was THE house, oh well.

We are all sick (Minus fee, who is at his safe haven of Jonesboro), and we are cancelling harlow’s bday party for now.

don’t want to get any kids sick.

I am going insane from all of these damn World of Warcraft patches, I just want to play!

We will prevail in the bidding war!

You cannot overturn my rule! I will have what I came to get!

“waits for bank to call”

….We will be moving soon

I’m uber excited, the house we are looking at is great, lots of space. Mortgage loan seems to be going through fine. “Crosses fingers”

Today is going to be a day, a frantic day. I am meeting with a bank after work to get pre-approved on a house loan, and then going to look at a house.

I’m very excited, yet very nervous.

What is a friend? What is the responsibility of being a friend?

friend Pronunciation (frnd)
n.
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts

Funny, most friends I know don’t match up to that definition. I think, over time, you really see who your true friends are. Im not talking about relationship friends (wives, even girlfriends, lovers, etc, those are a different category), In fact, Im not sure what I am talking about.

I have friends, we bicker sometimes, mostly over petty things, but I consider them my friends. What is a “true” friend? The type of friend that would console you when a family member dies. The type of friend that likes to hang out, with no AM. Friends talk shit behind friends back, it’s true. Everybody does it every now and then. Since we have stated that to be true, can we really say we are “Friends” per definition?

What about friends we have lost, how about that friend you had in elementary, the one in high school, college perhaps? The type of person you thought “We are soulmates, I can’t imagine every being separated from this person”. Do you automatically hate that person, because you have grown apart? How many friends have you kept through thick and thin? Think about this..

How many friends do you have now that were your friends when you were 13? Those friends when you were 13 probably had been there with you for years and years. Now they are gone, a distant memory. Does friendship have a lifespan? Will I lose all of my friends once that lifespan, like in your childhood friendships, has passed?

I know everybody has a person they used to be friends with, and now they hate their guts. Will that happen to current friends? What makes a person snap and decide they no longer want to “hang”? Is it that they cannot be trusted? Did they talk shit behind your back? Did you talk shit behind their back? Who stabbed who?

I’m just sayin….. I have alot of acquaintances, how many friends do I have, and how long will I have them?

They have done it again, another great album. I will give # ratings after I give it a few more listens. This is more of a first impressions review.

1. Attack - Starting out with a brutal, almost razor like riff, you can see why they picked this as the opener. This song has the usual mood swings like most SOAD songs. Fast, quiet, slow… The chorus/pre chorus is amazing and we get some great bridge screaming by Serj. “Weaving each others lives, holding this in mind, that if we fall, we all fall, and we fall alone”. This is a very political influenced song.

2. Dreaming - The opening of this song reminds so much of something off the first album. Very fast paced. Very nice little bridge. “Someone kicked me out of my mind, I hate these thoughts I cant deny” Kind of repetitive tho.

3. Kill Rock N Rock - I love this song, but the live version is better, IMHO. The vocals on the studio version arent quite a smooth and flowing as the live version. Great rock track, very punk feel to it. The bridge is great “Eat all the grass, Eat all the grass that you want, accidents happen in the dark” Daron and Serj co-exist beautifully on this track.

4. Hypnotize - First single and title track from the album. The intro to the album is really beautiful. Great song, probably one of, if not the strongest song on the album. The lyrics are are amazin. “Why don’t you ask the kids at tinnamen square, is fashion the reason why there were there”. Great message in this track.

5. Stealing Society - This song sounds like it should be on Toxicity from the first riffs, then soon catches the mesmerize feel. “Blue Skies fading” I love this song, the bridge is absolutely brilliant, Daron’s vocals are insane. “Im a midnight, fistfight” This is one of my favorite tracks on the LP, if not my favorite.

6. Tentative - Very fast paced opening, this song screams the first album. Serj’s vocals are identical to the first soad album in the verses. “Where do you expect us to go when the bombs fall?” This is another one of my favorite tracks.

7. U-Fig - The opening is familiar, sounds like a peice of toxicity, and then it melts your face off with a high paced riff led screamo verse. Another song that sounds very much like the first album. “You and me should go outside and beat em beat em eat em beat em eat em” Too bad it does get repetitive.

8. Holy Mountain - We heard this live way before the album was leaked. I love this song, it is the Aerials of Hypnotize. Can’t say much about this track but that it is amazing. “Can you feel their haunting presence?” “Liar, killer, demon, back to the river”

9. Vicinity of Obsenity - I love how this song starts. “banana banana banana, terra cotta pie” This could have been on Steal this album, very much like “chic n stu”. I can’t see this song being played live, it has lots of effects and vocally would be hard to pull off even for Serj I imagine.

10. She’s like Herion - The opening riff and drums are fab. “Selling Ass for Heroin”. Lyrically, this track is very much like bounce/psycho to me. Very quirky with a very, very dark tone to the music. Almost haunting. One of my favorites.

11. Lonely Day - This is the lost in hollywood of hypnotize. Very beautiful and sad song. You can almost put yourself in Daron’s shoes listening to this track. “Such a lonely day, shouldnt exist”. Serj compliments as usual with his spectacular voice. Love this track.

12. Soldier Side - The continuation of the intro to Mesmerize. Great track, pretty much like the rest of the album. “They were crying when their sons left, god is wearing black”. This song is about the wars, and the men that die within them. I love how it picks up with the same lyrics as the Mesmerize version, but with the full band.